Libra

I shine, but it doesn't originate from anything I've created 

I am but a window tryin my best to keep all the dust from blocking His shine

that bounces through my slippery syllables

and all I'm lookin for is someone to unlock my latch

to let some fresh breath in 

just a set of scales tryin  to refresh this browser

stuck in front of my face in this never ending session

my eyes, biting these bytes 

storing these realities, losing track of the separation 

between these dreams and when they try to tell me how to feel 

how to be real

something else

There is no ritual
to get His love
all you need is habitual conversation
to perpetuate the relationship
you can read some scripture
or you could find some broken people
and try to help them fix it
or you can just be broken together
for strength against bad weather
it's always good to have a tether
to keep your head down on this ground
I'm usually stuck up in the clouds
but of this I'm not that proud so
I try to keep from being loud
to avoid attracting attention from the crowd
and I appreciate when you bring me back down
it can get quite cold in the sky
and I really don't like their eyes on me
I flee from this spotlight
all night, runnin from this prison
around this neck you will see no chains
I am not their slave
I know how to behave but I will resist until my grave
the only king I praise is Jesus and his great faith
to my Lord I turn my face to feel his presence in the rain

and

every time I make you laugh

you make me think I have a chance

but in this race I'll finish last

cuz I left my confidence in my other pants

and I write these words because they will never make it passed 

my tongue that is always late to class

and prefers to sit in the back

so that you can't see it slackin

you got it so worried

its been days since I've wanted to eat

and this whole time I've wanted to take it slow

but so many things keep my foot down on this pedal

things like getting caught in your eyes, makes me want to stand up and dance

or the fact that I'm scared that I might miss my chance

more than one adventurer is hopin that you are a distressed damsel 

not to mention the sound of your voice, like flowers in the spring prancing with the breeze

it makes me want to take you for ransom

then turn around and pay a handsome fee just to keep you in my arms and my dreams

but now I'm gonna stop talking before I get too creepy

just need to end all this dratted thinking 

I am nothing

I am what I feel inside

I am what you hit me with

I am what you need me to be

I am me

who ever that is

maybe one day I'll find my portrait on the wall

maybe two day I'll start looking

but today has me lost inside these lyrics

rummaging for something to make right now go by

to make today go by

to make this week go by

just wastin time until I die

searching through my overgrown sonnets

trying to find something to fold up and put inside

this maze I've made of my mind 

mistitled

I don't want to forget, I just don't want it to hurt
I'll remember until I'm put back into this Earth>
So don't get offended when I am prone to flirt
Cuz these girls are just an attempt to cover up my bleeding heart with a new shirt
At first it all seems clean, but the pain will shine through and make this all worse
Besides, I'll never take them anywhere, my feelings have become inert
Completely vanished, it's like my emotions were put under a curse
Not that I mind, in fact I wish this had happened at birth
I finally see what my feelings are actually worth
And it is not that much, they should be out on the curb
About as important as that which lays under a red fern
So I wake up these mornings and watch the sun start falling
As mother nature and man-made continue with their brawling
While the clouds hold it all in 'til they can't help from bawling
And we run around tryin to live, but we're only stalling
The inevitable, sooner not later the Earth will start swallowin
us back up, nothing will stop this, so please stop all this wallowin
Everyone is trying to lead but me, I've got a leader that I'm followin
It is He who is I Am and He is all I will always need
Only through Him will I grow and one day succeed 
You see, every great tree had to start as a tiny seed
So here I am, starting out as small as a bracelet bead
With God as my sower I'll grow to be as tall as the oceans are deep
Within my writings, the Lord always does seem to creep
Perhaps you, he is trying to reach
If you let him in your heart, I promise He is no leach
He only wants to build you up, and clean you off like some bleach
Okay that was a stretch, but that is why I don't try to preach
My words find a way to ruin what they were trying to teach
So I am going to end this before it all comes to a screeching halt

bobbin

slowly sinking
through this feeling
that life is reeling
me into this real thing
to catch me in its net
and show me off to all its friends

true

whatever true is
maybe you could tell me over a blunt or two
help me become shrewd
cuz I spend most of my minutes in this feud
between my mind and my mouth
leaving me out of the loop
keeping me away from this truth
they speak of but never discuss
their truth is correct
and they will protect it
with every last breath
of your blood and your sweat
but don't fret
they are here for the better
the lies will be easier to digest
if you just take them with this spoonful of sugar
who cares of truth when life tastes so sweet
just stay distracted by those tweets
but there is no healing
in these screens
used to program our generation

I

Went out for a breath

and never came back

with the wind in my eyes

 and my dreams dripping

from this broken bucket 

I've had strapped to my shoulders 

for as long as I can forget

emit

Sometimes I wish

other times I dream

not enough times I do

and I never am

I'm always was

because

right now was over before you got to it

by the time you reached it

the present drifted past

and you will never see that the future doesn't come back