I'm not sure if I'm crazy but I really think I am

Swinging through the trees
I'm breathin' in the breeze
no reason to retreat
just seasons to go see
future forward
I am backwards
writing in non-polar circles
never reaching an end
I'm a walking contradiction
every time I talk I'm blocking
my subconscious that has a plan for me
but I'm an awkward planet with no galaxy
orbiting anything attracting me
I feel like I am bad for me
keeping myself from connection

I'm quite eclectic
bouncing back and forth I'm infected
this indecision is inconsistent
takes two minutes to switch to drop out
but two years to tell you just how insane you've made my brain
any time you say my name I scatter into flame
here I am talking like I've attained
any form of this conversation near your face

 I am a baby throwin my blankey to the floor
then cryin til my eyes are sore
self-destructive tendencies since I was born
I don't really cry no more
and I've never really died before
but I don't feel alive indoors
so let me out
let me out

last of summer's breeze

autumn's leaves
follow me
into a hollow sea
of swallowed dreams
where my thoughts think
about mopping up the problems
that keep cropping up
through the cracks in the wall
I stopped building when you walked away
anything to keep from falling again
sometimes I forget that I'm talking
I say a lot more than I want
I brought a lot less than I saw
since I got here

don't go
don't stay
Be