p.s.

I did quite the job at messing this up bad

I’ve got no chance of getting her back

Now all I can think of is all the times she made me glad

If I could take her smile I’d keep it in a bag

Too take out and stare at when life was being a drag

And I’m the only one to blame for being this sad

I failed and threw our love into the trash

I never realized what a wonderful girl I had

And now all I can do is sing about being a bastard

Cuz I took our happiness and sent it down some rapids

Battered and bruised, alone here I stand

I lost her in the fray, we didn’t stick to the plan

Maybe if I had used something more permanent than crayons

I could be writing about a completely different past

But this life doesn’t give you many chances

So I take what I get and rejoice at the advances

Even if sometimes it knocks me on my pants

Just got to let it out in one of these rants

And keep happy no matter the circumstances

Hoping that my smile doesn’t die and turn to ashes

Like the last of a stoner’s stash

Or a chronic gambler’s cash

Rather I’d like to make my cheeks splash

As my lips dive up into a delicious laugh

May as well focus on the present until it passes

There it goes did you see it ooze by like molasses?

Collecting dust as into the past it is added

Or did it zoom by, leaving way too fast?

Avoiding today as into yesterday it dashes

I try to keep time slow so I can appreciate each little patch

Letting it speed up makes each moment harder to catch

So I lower the tempo by lounging in some grass

Instead of using blinkers as metronomes as my car burns gas

Burning these seconds into minutes as I’m backed up in traffic

And burning these nights into weeks as I’m back to that flask

As these weeks burn to months I feel more and more plastic

Faking this social to keep them from asking

So many questions that have no chance of grasping

Any real answer from my stupid ass mouth that’s flapping

My mind is like cupped hands trying to hold on to water

the water is the thoughts slipping through the cracks,

dripping onto this page as if my hands weren't even

there to stop any of this

And there it goes, did you catch it?

My thoughts just jumped into your mind, it was pretty

fast, but they went through your eyes so you must

have seen it, well maybe my next couple words

will make it more lucid, like anyone's mind yours

is able to be bent, like right now I am making you

say this in your head, well you have a choice, but

I am influencing your decision by putting this all in

front of you, so all I would like to say now is that

you forgot to use your own words to read this,

maybe if you would, this could all be complete