yo yo yo

what's up random person that might be reading this right now, if you follow me at all you will have noticed that I haven't added anything in quite some time, and there is good reason for this

    -pause for effect-

   I was focusing on a book! a book of poems that is and I didn't really want much of it to be on this blog here so that people had something fresh to read instead of just everything that has already been on this here bloggythingymajigg

so unfortunately the site I used to create the book doesn't like giving anything away for free so there is a $3.00 charge to purchase said book that can be found by clicking on this button here




so hopefully you are interested enough to sacrifice some moolah if not that is cool too I still love you!

but I don't really know if I will be adding to this blog much anymore, I am sort of addicted to this book making shiznit now but I am not one to be consistent so who knows what the future may hold

God bless and have a nice day :D

I've got blisters on my fingers

I remember what I want
it's December, I forgot

I'm at the end of my thoughts
wading my fingers in the pond
that responds to your love

it's a mirror

you can hear it

in the sincerely insincere farewell

forever yours
if you'll have me

intended more
but I'm lacking

just let me soar
just let me practice

I'll listen for
another chance
to tell you that
I'm not tryin to sell shoes
I'm tryin to comprehend you
I'm trying to apprehend views
of mountain ranges and avenues
and fuse them into this statue

I didn't sculpt it with clay
but these words are here to stay

bloom bloom

I stayed up all night
packin my bags
but right under my eyes
you left before I knew it
like it was the right thing to do at the time
but its already nine in the morning
and I've tried to fight for it

now I'm tired of the night
and all the problems I've ignited

while
finding the light we've recited into cliche
trying to hide like pee stains
stuck lyin bout my weekend
cuz the truth will get me beaten
yea the noose is not the reason I died
it was just the tool in season

ounno

see no evil
hear no evil
I'm still speakin' evil

I wake up some mornings
wondering why I had to sleep
why I have to breathe
where is this
what am I here to see
who am I supposed to be
who are you to me
what am I
it's why I write
but all I find
are broken puzzle pieces
and I lose my mind
between these lines

I'm stuck inside
this black expanse
its not that bad
its not like
any natural disaster had a plan
it just kept happening

let's just say

I'm better with my words
than I am with my actions

currency is a burden

please acknowledge
that the worth in me
is no where near the worth in you
I wish I was perfect too

sometimes I feel like I'm
drowning in a raindrop
while you weather every storm

sometimes I know that
I'm yelling for no reason
while you quietly love me through this rainy season

everyday I think about you
while you are probably
contemplating all the pain
maybe it's training for the day
we finally find the light
and exclaim our love!
for the plight
and for all those that might
need another fight
to align their sights

stones in a row

swing in
breath out
frequence
leap bounce
we wish
we pout
the waves
don't sound
they just play
above our ground
where we lay
and we drown
in the silence
that is so loud
a quiet driving
through our clouds
no rainy day
just puffs of doubt
patching the blue
with empty shouts

the sky is dry
my eyes can't lie
they try and try
but like water in the cycle
the truth will come around
gas or solid
its alternating vibrations

lying is honestly
the most constant thing
its obviously my promises
I can't keep them for longer than the taste
on my tongue
I'm a waste of lungs
filled with my hollow love
as if it could hold space
just cover up the nothing
with a little crazy
diddy I've written
in ribbons
along the city I call my bones
they don't know this
I'm too focused on supernovas
and my next poem
to let go of this coma
I've been writhing in
just lying here
finding my truth

finding my own sequence
in which to put my secrets
riding my own wave through this web of light and darkness
writing my lies upon this parchment
lighting my candle to fight the hardships
lying about anything that might come my way
too nervous of what the truth is
to ever let it out

selective memory

I never meant to let
this moment gather
so much momentum
now my tummy's bubblin'
diet coke and menthos
blastin' off at the mention
of our connection
our minds were made to mesh
you fill up my cup I
drink your suggestion
never question just requestin'
that you make an extension
on the rent for your heart
I might be a little late with my payment